"No, don't," Mike says, shaking his head, his eyes catching the glimmer of tear tracks on Will's face in the light from the street lamp at the curb. Amazing how he'd managed to upset Will more than Daniel had in the space of a five minute drive. It feels like he's got a guilt shaped anvil on his chest. If only there was a cliff nearby for him to throw himself off of. He wonders if he can talk Will into driving five more minutes to the quarry. "I was being an asshole."
He sighs, not ready to exit the car and leave things like this. He only has two more days before he has to drive back to school and it suddenly doesn't feel like enough time to try to fix the damage he's done. He doesn't know how many times he can go around blowing up his relationships and still have the most important people in his life turn around and forgive him. El had. And Will...Mike doesn't know how much more he can ask of him before he decides he's not worth it.
"If I were him, I'd be calling too." If Mike was Will's boyfriend, they wouldn't even be having this fight. There would be no Daniel. No crying. No disconnect. No regrets. But that's just a fantasy that Mike needs to let go of because the longer he holds onto it the more bitter he feels. "You're right, I shouldn't have been so judgemental. I shouldn't have said what I said."
"I just..." Mike takes a deep breath. "I feel like I'm losing you and it makes me stupid."
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Date: 2024-04-10 01:10 am (UTC)He sighs, not ready to exit the car and leave things like this. He only has two more days before he has to drive back to school and it suddenly doesn't feel like enough time to try to fix the damage he's done. He doesn't know how many times he can go around blowing up his relationships and still have the most important people in his life turn around and forgive him. El had. And Will...Mike doesn't know how much more he can ask of him before he decides he's not worth it.
"If I were him, I'd be calling too." If Mike was Will's boyfriend, they wouldn't even be having this fight. There would be no Daniel. No crying. No disconnect. No regrets. But that's just a fantasy that Mike needs to let go of because the longer he holds onto it the more bitter he feels. "You're right, I shouldn't have been so judgemental. I shouldn't have said what I said."
"I just..." Mike takes a deep breath. "I feel like I'm losing you and it makes me stupid."